On Last Days

Last Days

Last DaysToday is my last day at my current job. It’s giving me a whole host of conflicting emotions. I’m sure this post will be a little bit all over the place but I just wanted to share my thoughts on last days today.

I think part of the reason that I’m not really sure how I feel is that I’ve loved being at my current job.I don’t really want to go but I’m also really excited for what happens next. I do have another job lined up and I’ve had it in place for a little while so it will be good to finally get the chance to get my teeth into that. I just wish I didn’t have to leave my current job behind to do it.

It’s strange isn’t it? This mixture of emotions. I remember feeling it so keenly when I graduated, being torn between looking forward¬†with enthusiasm and not quite wanted to step away from something you’ve enjoyed. Surely it has got to be the sign of a job you loved, if leaving it is a challenge. Right? I wonder if it is something you get used to, or if I even want to. I want to keep loving my job, even if that means that leaving them kind of sucks.

Although today is my actual last day, my co-workers threw me a little surprise leaving lunch on Friday which was absolutely wonderful. I’ve been working with some good eggs and I certainly will miss them. It’s always scary started a new job and I feel like it is the first day of school all over again, wondering if you’ll make any friends. I really landed on my feet this time round though and needn’t have worried.

I think another worry with last days is that it’s hard to feel ‘ready’ to go. I’ve pushed my leaving date back and back because there was always something else that I wanted to make sure was sorted before I go. The last week or so has been a bit manic as I’ve tied up loose ends and tried to ensure that the handover is as smooth as possible. It’s been quite stressful actually! I was also only meant to be at my current job for a short time but got very lucky and was asked to stay. I’ve been there nearly eight months! It did mean however that I always knew that I would be leaving soon so I am somewhat prepared. Ish.

This has turned into a bit of a word-vomit about the strange whirlwind of feelings today but I hope you don’t mind. After all, I promised to keep you updated about my life even if it is at those moments when everything is going to change. And if you have spare luck floating around, I could always use a little extra as I prepare to start my next challenge!

Kelly x

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